He's different...
Mailed an online friend to be sure she was safe after the tsunamis.
She mailed back she was OK. Pffff.
Still haven't heard about some other people.
Friends of me have family in the disaster area, and we're searching for info.
Haven't succeeded yet.
Just saw a friend who has cancer again.
He's left now and has left a weird feeling.
For quite some time now he battles Hodgkin.
It took rather a long time before he acknowledged that something was wrong and went to a doctor.
Then the cancer appeared to have grown into an advanced stage.
It was quite a shock to him and he, in a way, incapsulated himself.
None was allowed to ask how he was doing, etc.
Well, I've had my bit in the past, so I did ask, and later he said I was the only person who he was able to confide in.
I felt like walking on tripwire. Afraid to say something wrong, ready to listen for parts of my days, and sometimes able to put some information or advice in.
We went through a lot.
And I went through some extra feelings, like when he said he didn't want to have radiation therapy and he'd rather die.
And he started to make arrangements, detailed arrangements.
And now?
I feel he's closed up completely.
Does it mean he's doing well and can cope on his own?
Have I done something wrong?
Have things gone worse and is he taking a distance?
Who knows......
He even walked out without a hugg. In good moods, but so absorbed in himself that he didn't even take notice.
One of the girls called him to give him a little applepie. We grabbed our chance to give him a huggg and that was completely OK.
But something is different......
I don't know what......
Well, time will tell...
