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Laane's blog
what a week!
So the computer gave it's display of unwillingness again, right when the back-up was made. So there was nothing left. I had a nice site nearly ready. Gone!! Well, that'll be the next project after valentine's day. In a way I'm getting used to loosing things. But I regret loosing photo's, texts and designs. Went to the doc. The diabetes was not under control and he didn't want to interfere with the prescription of the specialist. Well, the guy handed control back to my own doc. So the lack of wanting to take decisions on the part of my doc resulted in a kind of strike from my site. No need to ask for a consultation when nothing will be changed. We mailed... I spoke to the doc's wife last week and it was clear she had spoken with him. So now there was attention for the glucolevels after meals instead of the HBA1c alone. As it was all far beyond the normal level medicins were changed this time (again). Avandamet is tried now. The cholesterol levels were OK again, to our surprise. Bloodpressure too high and what causes more concern: my kidneys aren't working properly. Maybe it's used a flare up because of a cold or so, but if the next time the values are not well, I can be rather sure I'm confronted with the first sign of deterioration due to the diabetes. We'll know that in about a fortnight. Ofcourse the change of meds caused me to feel bad all day. But not bad enough not to have a good laugh. Childcare wrote a letter we received last tuesday that they would visit two days later. Forget it! Not during the vacation at 9.00 in the morning! So we cancelled the appointment and got a new one for next week friday. Got the confirmation letter today: an appoitment for 18 december 2005!!!! Time goed fast, but not that fast! But how on earth will they be able to evaluate the situation here if they can't get a date right???
no need to review my blog
I don't know who was as bored that he needed to start putting other people's blogs down.
It surely says something about that person, nothing about the blog or the blogwriter.
If and when reviewing is needed it should be done by proper standards and these need to include contact with the writer.
Even though I'm OK with people visiting my blog, I don't write for the anonimous crowd that's not able to make their life interesting. Not do I write for the clicker who doesn't care one bit what is written or even if there's something written, as long as the 20 or 30 seconds pass and one more credit is earned.
I write for my friends who live abroad and want to know how things are going here. They just want the day to day kind-of-telephone-talk, and that's what they'll get.
No need for pseudo intellectual to-do or world changing ideas. (In case they need that, they know where to find me.)
They're not out to feel better because they feel able to judge someone, but they are interested in reading between the lines.
So when I have a nice layout, it says something how I feel, and when my layout is completely crap, I either feel rotten too, or I was bussy and was needed somewhere else.
Being a mother of 6, (one of them autistic and needing almost 100% of the time supervision), I have something else in my life than to live up to (unwritten) expectations of a blog-reviewer.
Standing above....
Another week!!
A friend visited us because of Stef's birthday of last week.
She wanted to give him a hugg. Oh my dear!!
You should have seen that: a near 50 year old trying to hugg a hesitant, red coloring, 19 year old that is about half a meter longer. LOL!
He was glad with the present: an envelope with money. So I expect him to go to the movie or buy a book or CD.
The weather was cold but sunny, so Lars and Thami went skateboarding. And Nyo was with Jim.
So finally we had some time to talk about some matters.
In the meantime the girls were playing and eating the sweets she brought.
Almost an idilic picture, if it weren't that my thought were circling around the posibility of Childcare barging in.
After my friend left, the girls wanted to go and play with a friend, so it was rather quiet at home.
Time to work on the laundry, and sort out some stuff.
In the meantime I was thinking about an article I wanted to write about how the government handles childabuse.
And about the fact that innocent people's lives are broken because of false accusations.
People say that those people have to accept that innocent people ghave to suffer, because it's for a good cause. If every accusation is taken serious there's the highest chance of getting childabusers in jail.
Well, maybe work on a better system, because false accusations are very disruptive for a family and very traumatic too.
Wrote that in a comment on a site, and it got the dogs loose.
Well, I assume those are all people who have never dealt with false accusations, and especially never have dealt with police interrogations on that subject.
I wish I could shed off all those feelings.
I have dealt with so much in my life.
But even the death of my two babies didn't hurt so much.
I still miss them, but the feelings I have about those false accusations and everything that happened then are so much more painfull.
Maybe because it's about me as a person.
I'm honest, I stand up for my kids, and I certainly don't abuse them.
It hurts when people think they know better and judge you upon their preconceptions.
No defense possible.
And now we're dealing with accusations like that again, and it makes me so very angry that people even consider thinking that!!!
And I'm angry at myself because I can't stand above it, and I just don't know how to handle those people who think they have a morale that is far higher than mine.
blood jumping
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I needed a day off, but ended up doing loads of laundry.
And in between I re-templated this site.
But I didn't do everything I wanted too.
I'm sorry I haven't been able to keep up visiting blogs and doing the usual things.
Nyo needed a lot of guidance today. And after all the crap going on last weeks, it was just too much to stay calm and friendly towards a raging puberty-driven autist.
Jim wanted to go out to get some trousers in the sales in a town nearby. They have their shops open every first sunday of the month.
Free travelling is on his traincard because of his job...
I told him he'd either would stay at home or take Nyo with him.
After complaining a lot that he had no socks (We fold them straight into bags full!!!), Nyo finally realised that I was a hundred 100% after my decision, so he quit his rebellion and went with Jim.
They came home with the trousers they wanted, 2 towels (needed some new ones), and something for the girls.
Isn't it strange that time seems to be so long when unpleasant things are happening, and time is far too short when it's silent in the house??
Before I knew it the afternoon was over......
I felt ill all evening, but managed to have a good laugh when Billy Connolly was on TV.
It's always pleasant to feel the few drops of Scottish blood jumping through my veins. LOL!
These last days have been far too hectic. Because I said during the visit with the psychiatrist for N that his problem was partly an interactive problem. she speeded up the assessments for T and L. So that meant over 60 pages of paperwork to fill in. Make them fill in their own pages, and have school answer their questions and give me their files. For T it wasn't a problem and it came through rather swiftly, but L's mentor seemed to have a problem with handing over a copy of the file. Why do people create problems instead of solve them?? And there were so many other things to do. Birthdays to attent, birthdays to organise. Because we have 5 birthdays in a month here at home, people feel they can drop in at the strangest times. Usually I don't mind, but with all these "issues" going on, and D to help, because she can't use her arm, and the carnaval etc etc. I feel I have hardly enough time. So yesterday I felt tired and ill, and today I got a migraine. It was far worse than before. Maybe because of the new medication. Don't know. I still have many things to do, and I hope I can do them tomorrow. Labels: -
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