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Laane's blog
peacekeeper
Merry Christmas!!!!!!!!!! Christmas started for me with the moon bright in the sky. It was wonderful!! The full moon, casting a winterlight on everything and creating large shadows. I woke the girls and we stood in front of their window, gazing outside in awe. A moment worth to remember. D in front of me, and Y standing beside me, with the curtain covering her back. Both faces tilted to look at the moon. Christmasday started with N going downstairs at 5.10 hours in the morning. I would have understood if we had presents under the tree, but we don't have that. When he wakes up, he's not able to sleep anymore. It's one of those problems parents from some autistic children have to face. He switched on the computer and kept silent, so I went back to bed. We woke up with the world covered in misty clouds. Very special in its own way. We've spend the day at home, as planned. N is still adjusting to the fact that it's vacation. It wouldn't have been a problem if he'd be alone. But with T around, making remarks about everything, I felt like sitting on a sissling vulcano. So I was on the top of my toes about all day; a true peacekeeper. (I couldn't find an adoptable with the text, otherwise it would have been on top of this blog. LOL!! One way or another I had a strange feeling that grew inside me. It made me nervous. It felt like something huge was pending. (It's still not gone). So when we smelled something burning, we went through the whole house, sniffing and looking for something that created it. But we found nothing. It came from outside, from people who have a fireplace in their house. The wind blew the fumes to our part of the street. Needless to say I don't like that. Y felt a bit congested too. Later we had a simple christmasdinner. Nothing special, except for the ice. Someone didn't expect the thick chocolatesauce to suddenly "fall" down, so we all had a good laugh and spooned the sauce from his tray. LOL! The evening was rather quiet. I needed that!!! Merry Christmas!!! Thank you all for the beautiful cards and gifts. Don't forget to collect yours on my site, or ask me for the zipfile with cards and swapitems. Labels: -
the day before christmas 2004
Jim has his day off to get the groceries in. We always try to get some special offers that are put into the sales an hour before closing time. But one can know for sure now that the economy is worse, as there was hardly anything special. So we ended up with chicken for christmas. Well, it'll do, fine. Finally we got hold of the psychiatrist. We asked for medication for N, but she first wanted an appointment. It will be on....... january 28th!!! So christmas, the change of years and my birthday will be spend guarding him, instead of enjoying it. Well, so be it. By then I will be over the disappointment. I felt like we've been left in the cold though, because I don't like it when they give all the decisions in my own hands, (because I'm a psychologist), but when I need them to write a signature, they pull back. It's annoying, because they would have put down that signature if a patient/client would have been involved. Grrrr. We had lots of rain.... not really a day before christmas. To get a bit of feel, I put a pot with cinnamon and other spices to boil, and it filled the house with just the feel that was needed. I got a very special gift for christmas from Lizzie: the lady on top of the christmasblog. And a huge surprise from Siobhan. She made me member till june from Fairy Glen Graphics. I was one of her most admiring members when she still has a linkware section, so I'm absolutely thrilled by the present. Immediately I reworked a page of the christmasstory. Thanks a lot Lizzie, Siobhan and all others, who make my christmas so very special. Thanks Thanks Thanks!!!!!! Labels: -
waiting for snow
Another one of those days that seem to excist out of hurrying. But I got to clean the backcurtains. An extra. So that's great! One way or another I felt a bit more energetic than the last days. Tomorrow the girls have a christmasdinner at school, so I got two nice jackets from their wardrobe. I got them from a friend, and now they come to good use. Before that they have a special balletlesson. Parents and every one else are invited to have a look. I've danced with the same teacher, so I'm sure she'll be amazed about how I am now. Can't even walk properly..... There are days I forget I've ever done ballet, but then I hear some music and all my genes start moving and dancing. LOL! Wish I had the chance to make another choreography. I've got enough creativity flowing through my body when I hear music. And before the ballet, we have to go to school for a talk with the teacher of D. It's time the school opens up about the bad reading of her. She gets assistance, the teacher said that last week. But I want to know if that's on base of a dyslexia test. The school informs parents badly, and last year we got an agreement they would inform us better... When it's on base of a dyslexiatest, it's not to the school alone to choose the assistance. We should have a say in that too. legally we have.... Brrrrr..... it's so cold... Last night it's been freezing like mad, and even during the day it did. They said that we might get snow... maybe even at christmas..... Oh, and the doctor mailed: the recipe for the Lipitor had been mailed to the pharmacist...last week.But he would do it again. (I mailed him it wasn't there.}. I know he's not speaking the truth about last week, and I'm sure he knows I know. Otherwise the pharmacist would have solved the matter...... Well, I can't be bothered.... We're waiting for snow.... Labels: -
passport
Had to go for a passport. Had to take the girls with me, because they are going on my passport. T and Lwent too, because they needed a passport too. There goes the christmasdinner I thought, when they gave the bill. I wouldn't have done it, but we're forced too. We need to have identification immediately available from januari 1. When I had to write my signature, I could hardly write. I was amazed...what was the matter? I had to sign about 6 times and all signatures were different. Unbelievable!! I'm not worried, but for a short moment I thought: MS. There are times I can do everything with my hands, and then suddenly I can't hold a mug properly, and, like now, can hardly write properly. Sometimes it lasts a day, other times it lasts a week. I was glad the woman at the council didn't care. T was amazed he had to answer questions like: "the names etc from your parents please." He thought it to be rediculous to answer these questions. She had my data in front of her. Only after we explained she had to check if he was really my son, he answered them. After that we went to the Fair Trade shop, which is nearby. I haven't been in a shop for a while, so it was nice. Bought the girls each a little sparkling ball at the size of a marble. Happiness for a couple of dimes. I saw a nice Peruvian Christmasscene. And I still had one of those presentvouchers. Can you believe it? I bought it!! The Faces were clearly made with care. Real love for the work that was put in it. So I feel very happy with it, and I'm glad the maker gets good wages too. Made a giftpacket for a friend. It took quite a while because of the uncooperative hands. When it was all taped in, I realised I'd forgotten another little present.... Well, it'll go later next year I expect. I couldn't open the package at all! Labels: -
remembering Morning Star
Time flies.
Another year passed, but Morning Star's voice still trembles and resonates.
I've made a page for her.
Maybe someone reads it and can help me to get to know more.
She passed away'some years ago and I don't know where her grave is.
It feels empty and lost not being able to know exactly how she died and where her body is.
Well, maybe her memory shouldn't come to a closure, because she was such a special friend.
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